I was employed in a staffing company before coming to Japan. Because of that, I was assigned from one company to another. I did C++ for a few months, then Java, and so on. It was hard, yet exciting to adjust to a new project, new work environment, new office mates. I got used to it and I would have to say, I liked it. These past few weeks, I’m afraid I’m slowly losing my motivation to go to work. I wanted to just be in my bed just watching a movie from a lcd dlp projector that I wish to have. OK, you can say that I’m just lazy. But I think I need something new. Not a new job, but maybe a new hobby? A few minutes ago, I’ve reactivated my Postcrossing account. At least I’ll have something to look forward to aside from Christmas. ^^

The photo above best describes how I feel at this moment. It must be the stress I feel at work and in my daily life. I have to look on the bright side. After all, God has always been good to me.

I think I have been a software developer far too long. I’ve been thinking quite a lot lately what I want to do five years from now. Clearly, I don’t see myself still a programmer. Should I continue being in IT, either I become more technically skilled, or manage people. A colleague who is much younger than I am has already started doing what she wants to become a year from now, less technical but more on administration job. In most if not all cases, management people are paid much more than the people who get their hands dirty. Now, when shall I start? I’ve done few small steps, including reading self-help books. I do feel that I need to become aggressive, be more confident. But easier said than done.

I like to keep things even if they don’t appear to be very important. Before I left home to attend a university in Cebu, all my high school stuffs were intact. My notebooks and textbooks were all in my cabinet. Even those post-its and notes given to me by my classmates during retreats. I was told that all my stuff were put in a box when our house got renovated. I also thought that my younger cousins borrowed some of my books as references for school project. But I was wrong. All my stuff were neglected as all of my textbooks only served as homes to bookworms. If internet was as common and accessible as it is today, I would have tried to sell textbooks online. If nobody wanted to buy, I would have just posted it somewhere and give it for free. I’m just sad that most of my stuff didn’t remain useful as they were to me years ago.

I’ve always dreamt of buying a car. It’s not really just for the sake of having one or something because honestly, I still cannot afford to buy one. I want just wish for an air-conditioned vehicle for my daughter. Her school is about an hour jeepney ride from our house. On the way home, she usually falls asleep and it’s impossible to be in a comfortable position. She often gets sick, mostly cough and colds due to air pollution. With this wish in mind, I often visit car companies websites. Car sales must really be low because the Pay Light, Pay Low promo of Toyota Philippines is back. Normally, they require 30% downpayment. Now, for an innova, they only require about PHP80,000, with free LTO registration, without Chattel Mortgage Fee. You don’t have to search through car insurance companies because this amount already includes insurance! I wish I had PHP80,000 right now.

I often talk about Toyota here, I wish I could get something from them!