In about a week, I’ll be on my way home! I planned to do another round of detox before I go home but I had loads to do at work that I had to go there last Saturday. Eating just fruits could definitely make me dizzy, making me less capable of thinking clear. So I canceled the plan. But there’s a lot of holiday feasts ahead of me and I’m getting really worried to ward off extra calories! I have to at least maintain what I’ve accomplished so far. Everyone agrees that the best fat burner is exercise so I have to do it. But how can I motivate myself and my family?

When I browsed through the Facebook updates, I’ve noticed that there’s a fun run (at least 3kms) in my hometown on December 26th. It’s one of the alumni homecoming activities. My brother and I went to the same school and I have to convince him to run with me. I think most of my high school friends have no intention of joining. You see, I don’t want to be too kind to my brother because I don’t want him to treat me like how he treats my mother. It’s a long and painful story… but I gotta do it. It’s the best way for me to combat weight gain. Maybe I’ll be able to convince my mother also. It’s gotta be a fun Christmas vacation!

I love going to the malls just to window-shop. But sometimes, I dread going into one because of sales reps approaching you to try out their products. I’m not saying that I don’t like them, because it’s their job. It’s just that I really feel bad every time I say no.

Early this evening, a lady literally blocked my way to introduce me to their product claiming that it’s the best wrinkle cream there is. I could not say “no” so I just let her lead the way. Besides, I must have finally acquired enough wrinkles that I got approached. While she did the talking, my more than a decade old acne scars is my number one priority now (yes, I still do hope I could manage to at least lessen their number). I think it would be better to just focus on one thing first. Or is there a cream somewhere that is really good at hitting two birds with one stone?

It was a bad idea to tell what I thought to a sales rep. She would definitely offer me something for it. Before the discussion became lengthy, I asked her the price and that sent me off running from their shop.

For almost two decades, I’ve been looking for the best acne skin care. And for almost two decades, my face has never been acne-free.

There’s also one thing that I’ve always wanted to do: try out those facials. I’ve heard that getting facials could help prevent acne. Last night, I had one. After scrubbing my face with that metal spatula-like equipment, I was asked if I wanted to have my eyebrows trimmed. It was free of charge and I was a bit curious so I gave the go signal. Trimming is not shaping, right? Or is it? Because when I finally brought myself infront of a mirror, I was totally shocked and had the urge to demand to give me my eyebrows back! Now, they look like they are just a pair of curve lines! How hideous they are to look at! It would have been better if I put on makeup but I don’t. Now I can’t bring myself to hold my head up high because I feel like my eyebrows are missing. Never will I allow this to happen again.

Two lessons learned: never give in to curiosity easily and if I do want someone to trim my eyebrows for me, I should, by all means tell her to keep it thick as they are. Only remove the stray ones, please.

How long do you say these could grow back?

There were times when I was able to exercise continuously for two weeks max. Then my resolve usually crumbles, then I take at least one month “rest”. This went on for months until we transferred to our current apartment and I completely stopped exercising. Not even a single stretching exercise. Then my family came to visit in May. At that time, I weighed 53 kgs. They went home to Philippines last month, I took my weight and panicked when the scale registered past 55kgs! Maybe now is the right time for me to try out those fat burners. I was only bent on cutting back on rice because I do consume a lot of it but I feel that there’s a lot missing. I need to sweat it out.

Then I got this flyer about a gym only for ladies near my place. I went down there for consultation. I freaked out because I now weigh 55.9kgs. I was told I am 3.9kgs overweight. Not only that, at 30, my metabolism rate is that of a 38 year old. If I don’t do anything about it, I’m pretty sure that I’d become more like my mom in just a short time.

I had been trying to get motivated enough but after that consultation, I certainly will be up on my feet trying to sweat it out. My journey to lose 3.9kgs begins now.