Bisdak Babbles

When I was a child, I basically had zero appetite that my mother had to force different kinds of vitamins into my mouth. I was also given some stuff that was supposed to make me tall but clearly those did not have any effect. My mother had to buy stuff like Sustagen because I often fight off the urge to throw up every time I drink milk. In my teens and early twenties, I had to take vitamin C supplements as I was prone to catching cold. Then during pregnancy, aside from the prenate dha, I had to religiously take up iron and calcium supplements. Despite my dislike to milk, I had to force myself. Now after crossing the 20’s, I feel the need to at least take something that would help me avoid osteoporosis. But I still don’t like milk even if it is chocolate-flavored. Worse, I have long lost my cravings for chocolate! I hope I could find calcium-rich, low-fat, strawberry-flavored milk soon.

So far, I had done 5 workouts in two weeks. So far, so good. Then I got so busy, my monthly period came, and I missed a week of my new exercise regime. I was so excited to get back, did stretching and all, yet 15 minutes into the routine, I got so dizzy. Good thing I was close to a wall and leaned on it while I still had 50% of my consciousness. I completely lost my vision for a while and only about 10% of my hearing was left. I felt myself giving in to darkness. Thank God, I did not collapse. I’m really scared of going to the hospital. It took m 15 minutes to get better.

I have no idea what caused it because I made sure I have enough sleep and was not hungry. I was a little bit thirsty, but I experienced being more thirsty before and something like that did not happen. Perhaps I’m not really meant to do something rigid? Would trying out supplements like irvingia weight loss save me the trouble?

I really want to get fit but I don’t want something like that to happen again. It was really scary.

I’ve been ranting about about worries of gaining more weight, yet lacking motivation to sweat it out. I often thought of going to fitness centers but the membership and the monthly fees are just too expensive for me. Plus, most of those fitness centres are far from my place.

I could not just depend on jogging because it won’t target all of the problem areas. Actually, I’ve stopped doing that since we moved. Then I received one of those flyers handed out at the train station. It’s from Fitness Werkz, not Fitness First. The gym is just for ladies and is close to my place. They have this 30-minute fitness programme and was currently having a promo. So I went their to avail the free trial. I really liked it and the routine is not boring so I signed up. Their sign-up fee is a lot cheaper than the famous ones. So, Lipovox and diet pills are still not in my options list.

I’m still in my second week. I do hope I could go on and get rid of my bulging tummy. *_*

There were times when I was able to exercise continuously for two weeks max. Then my resolve usually crumbles, then I take at least one month “rest”. This went on for months until we transferred to our current apartment and I completely stopped exercising. Not even a single stretching exercise. Then my family came to visit in May. At that time, I weighed 53 kgs. They went home to Philippines last month, I took my weight and panicked when the scale registered past 55kgs! Maybe now is the right time for me to try out those fat burners. I was only bent on cutting back on rice because I do consume a lot of it but I feel that there’s a lot missing. I need to sweat it out.

Then I got this flyer about a gym only for ladies near my place. I went down there for consultation. I freaked out because I now weigh 55.9kgs. I was told I am 3.9kgs overweight. Not only that, at 30, my metabolism rate is that of a 38 year old. If I don’t do anything about it, I’m pretty sure that I’d become more like my mom in just a short time.

I had been trying to get motivated enough but after that consultation, I certainly will be up on my feet trying to sweat it out. My journey to lose 3.9kgs begins now.

My mother used to be so slim. Well, most middle-aged women did. It did not alarm her before visiting Singapore. Why now? Because she is having a hard time looking for a blouse that could fit her! The Great Singapore Sale has already started but almost all of the items on sale are the small sizes. Because of this, she has been babbling about trying out one of those diet pills but I keep on reminding her to be careful and think it over. After all, she has a friend who was a victim of an apidexin scam.

My mother, sister, and Shaynna have been here with me in Singapore for more than two weeks now. Because of that, I’ve been having a hard time controlling my appetite. I’m really worried I’d be as big as my mother if this carries on, prompting me to go over sensa reviews and other what they call “natural” way of losing weight. They are leaving in a few days. I wish I could make afford to make them stay here longer. Since it’s not possible yet, I’ll just look forward to try to start losing weight all over again.

It’s been ten years since I first tasted green tea. I almost threw up because the taste was just so different. And I did not even like the usual tea we had at home. After spending a few years in Japan eventually made me got used to it as green tea is more commonly offered for free in the restaurants there. I’ve read lots about the benefits of green tea, including faster metabolism, even as one of the natural bad breath treatments. But still, I can’t get my family to trade up their Coca-cola for green tea. I’m still trying and I hope that later on they would like it.

I’m always away from my hometown. And each time I go home, I would have to bear with comments like “oh, you’ve gained weight”, or “what happened to your face?”. Yes, I know how heavy I am right now because I step on the weighing scale almost daily. And yes, I’m aware of the acne on my face because I always take a look at the mirror. I’ve tried almost every kind of face wash for acne there is but they just won’t go away. I started having breakouts when I was 14. Most of the people I know who had the same problem said that their acne problem just disappeared in their mid-20’s. Mine? I think they’re here to stay forever (I hope not). I suppose my friend Grace is right. Nothing is left for me to do than to change to a healthier diet.